8. January 8, 2006
January 8, 2006
Saturday, July 24, 2021
1:08 PM
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Every Day Extraordinaire!
Today, I am. I am many things and many things to many different people. And all those people are different. But they are not me. I am here and I am good.
Ok, from yesterday to today. Where are we at? We want to say thank you for all the nice things said in response. I feel like today I am one of the luckiest people alive to have this many nice people around me. I cherish your words and you who wrote them. You are all heaven sent! J
We will not go into too far about being or considering ourselves smart. I think this is a relative term, but I will try to hold on to more credit than not. Not be so hard. The Masters work gives me feelings of learning more every day. I need to think more often God believes in me, so I should too. I am still too often left with old tapes where if I esteem myself, someone will take it away and tear it to pieces. All through my childhood I was told and called dumb and stupid. I had no idea I had a mind that was not that. I do not need that tape any more … it needs to be burned.
Oh man … I just wrote words to that effect on a small purple sticky note I have here at my computer. From being over at Lori’s I still have a candle lit representing letting go of a fear. So, I burned the old tape/note. We watched the note burn in the ashtray. It was a beauty of a flame. I thought the whole sheet would burn, but the fire left a quarter-size piece that looks like the State of Louisiana upside down. After the fire was out, I picked up the paper and looked at it. The only word that did not burn was the word, “smart.” Wow! I better keep that scrap. There. I taped it to my computer. Wow … ok, that point is covered! I feel pretty warmed up inside and out! Thank you, God, for your trust in me!! Feeling tingly.
Well, I guess I am done here for the moment … think we will go to school for a while. Thanks for the lift over! Thank you for the love...
Us
posted by Ann Marie @ 1/08/2006 11:17:00 AM Comments: 11
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Anonymous said... I loved your entry. So much of it reminded me of myself a few years back. I am so glad you realize now that your best is good enough for GOD. And if it is good enough for HIM...it must be good enough for you too. I so admire your talent and appreciate you taking time to read me. I do not always leave a comment, but always read you.
Ann Marie said... Awe Barb - You do not know how much your comments mean to me. We will focus on "Good Enough for God, Good enough for us!" *Big Bright Smile*I feel special that you stop by my place. It has been a couple of years knowing more of you indirectly. There has always been a sense of respect, but I find myself now more able to pause and read the words you write. Sometimes your crowd is a little intimidating for us, because there are so many. Traditionally, I have kept away from the "Big" people, because I have not accepted myself a part of a crowd more than the internal crowd we are. It gets confusing for us. But then I miss wise words. We are learning things "out there" are more ok, and our fears need to be let go of. Specially those of God. Our love, Ayn
Anonymous said... See I told you quit being so hard on yourself. Let go and let God:) Deb
lorileo said… Ayn, Thanks for visiting... Your words brought a big smile on my face, on a day where I have not done so. My one and only Aunt died yesterday and today in church we celebrated baptism. She was my Godmother too! I am going to light a candle too... right now!!! I also have Lime Verbena. Thanks, Lori
Gabreael said… Hang in there! You can do it! Just reading it inspired me. :) Gabreael
Bon & Mal Mott said… Ayn, you can let go of the past and realize that you are a very intelligent woman. That is immediately apparent from your writing. Those who told you different were cruel and intimidated by your intelligence. Never sell yourself short. Love, Bon & Mal
V said… I am pleased to see you feeling Happy! Save that {Louisiana Smartness}!! Hugs,V
Tamara said… Awe Sweetie, I know exactly how you felt as a child. Thank God you know that none of it was true. Keep positive affirmation post-it notes on your computer, bathroom mirror and dash of your car. Then anytime you start feeling down, just read one and know that you are smart, beautiful, and worthy of all great things in life! And if ANYONE ever tries to make you feel bad again, just look at them and say, "Oh go suck a frogs head!" Then laugh as you walk away. Love and hugs, T
Christina K Brown said... You are wonderfully and fearfully made. God does not make mistakes...think on that today my darling friend. He makes us each exactly how He wants us to be. That thought alone is so humbling to me. What a peace it also brings me, to know that each of my flaws serve a purpose in God's plan. I have MS for a purpose. It has caused me to start a blog and somewhere out there in cyber space is a soul that reads about God on a regular basis because I write about Him, and they read my blog because THEY HAVE MS TOO! We are all connected by a thread of humanity, and I am so privileged to know you Ayn. I am so privileged to call you my friends...those that I have meet so far. I hold you close and treasure you. xxoo, C
TJ said...
Ayn, how sincere and honest. It took me until I was 50 to finally see I am who I am and that is ok. One thing we all need is to keep building on our best sides...soon after all the rest will fall away. Let us sing together and loudly! ( arms wrapped around each other and swaying to the beat)
Everyday People
Sly and The Family Stone
Sometimes I'm right and I can be wrong
My own beliefs are in my song
The butcher, the banker, the drummer and then
Makes no difference what group I'm in
I am everyday people, yeah yeah
There is a blue one who can't accept the green one
For living with a fat one trying to be a skinny one
And different strokes for different folks
And so on and so on and scooby dooby doo-bee
Oh sha sha - we got to live together
I am no better and neither are you
We are the same whatever we do
You love me you hate me you know me and then
You can't figure out the bag I’m in
I am everyday people, yeah yeah
There is a long hair that doesn't like the short hair
For bein' such a rich one that will not help the poor one
And different strokes for different folks
And so on and so on and scooby dooby doo-bee
Oh sha sha-we got to live together
There is a yellow one that won't accept the black one
That won't accept the red one that won't accept the white one
And different strokes for different folks
Love ya!
TJ said... PS. You may want to change who you hang out with...ya know people who can type or least proofread before they hit send!!!