Identity-Environment Relationship
<p>Oct 14, 2014 02:23 PM</p>
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I've started noticing that it seems like most people have their sense of identity, and then then they influence their environment to reflect their sense of identity.</p>
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I think for me it has always been backwards, I've always used clues from my environment to construct the concept of my identity.</p>
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Since many of my memories are rather hazy (I can at least remember doing many things, I just can't remember what I was thinking or feeling during the events), I've rarely connected with those remembered actions and decisions.</p>
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For examples, if I found that I had an entire shelving unit full of books on Wicca and other forms of modernized ancient European paganism, then that was how I knew I was Wiccan. If I found an entire huge box of handmade, organic soap bars and salt scrubs, etc under the bathroom sink, then I realized that I love that sort of thing, I realized that I enjoy spoiling myself when it comes to bathing. If I opened my closet doors and saw a wardrobe that was half 'goth' in fashion-nature and half very militant looking, then I gathered that I must identify as a 'goth' sometimes and have some kind of military fetish or something at other times.</p>
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So I have no clues in my environment to form a sense of my identity, and nothing much to do to distract myself from whatever my 'natural' thoughts might be. I'm staying with my mother until I get back up on my feet again, and her house is full of things that reflect her. But unlike me, she is consistent. Her house is full of traveling stuff (maps, souvenirs, etc) and plant/garden decoration stuff. This has accurately reflected her for at least a decade, I think. Her environment reflects her sense of identity.</p>
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I have nothing that reflects my sense of identity, which is revealing to me that I have no sense of identity, and now I am often alone with no distractions and flooded with all of these chaotic thoughts and voices, and random emotions that don't even seem to really be mine.</p>
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So I guess I am rather backwards when it comes to an identity-environment relationship. I wonder if this is a D.I.D. related thing, or if it is something else on top of D.I.D.</p>
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