Paranoia and Trust Issues
<p>Nov 07, 2014 08:47 PM</p>
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Paranoia / Trust Issues
Postby CopperMoon » Tue Oct 28, 2014 9:14 pm</p>
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Anyone else struggle with intense paranoia about other people? When I take a close, critical look at my personal history, I find that there have been very few times in my life when I was actually able to trust someone else.</p>
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Typically when I have been able to trust someone else, it seems that it had a lot to do with my perception that they were all-around inferior to me and I was caring for them in some way. It wasn't really a genuine form of trust, but rather I considered them a non-threat and I cared about them, which was apparently enough to fend of paranoid thoughts and feelings.</p>
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I don't seem to be capable of being vulnerable in any way to anyone and giving them an ounce of trust. I can occasionally fake trust, and make it seem like I trust a person, but under the surface I am constantly analyzing them, keeping record of every little detail and in some cases even setting deliberate 'traps' to see if I can 'catch them' lying to me, changing their stories or trying to manipulate me, without them being aware that I am aware.</p>
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It's easy for me to drive myself a bit nuts with this stuff. I have had very few friendships, and even fewer that have lasted too long. The only long-standing (almost 7 years now) friendship I've had is with a fellow gamer who lives in another country. Our friendship is entirely online, and I also tend to have the 'upper hand' emotionally, in that I give him lots of advice, consoling, etc but never let that table turn. (Maybe I am just a total control freak lol.)</p>
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It is so easy to set off this paranoid mechanism in my mind. It happens so often, and I'm so used to not reacting to it, that I tried to explain to my current T numerous times already that I am a very paranoid person, just as like a fair heads-up to her. I am still struggling with it constantly, though.</p>
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