Alone

<p><a href="http://englishrain.wordpress.com/">http://englishrain.wordpress.com/</a> July 23, 2013&nbsp;(3), NEWS August 7, 2013 (9)</p>

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Over the years, my best friend has become a means of survival for me. &nbsp;I look at him and think of what he would lose in terms of our friendship. &nbsp;I’m not the most confident person, and my self-esteem is almost non-existent. &nbsp;However, my FOC tell me they enjoy having me in their lives, and I owe them any amount of joy I can give. &nbsp;My first thought when I’m alone, though, is how I can end my existence or cause myself pain as penance for something I can’t even describe.</p>