Self Hatred

When I am weak, I am strong.

The same goes for self image

The more worthless I feel the more unlovable I feel the more defeated I feel the more self hatred I feel then God's love is strong

The less I love myself the more I can receive God's love

The more unlovable I feel the more I can receive God's love

The more shame I feel the more I can receive God's love

That's because I will rely all them more on what God thinks of me then on what I think of myself

We love because he first loved us

Well if they're such a thing as first self-love it would be we love ourselves because he first loved us

Not we love him and others because we first love ourselves

First that's the key and that's where kingdom comes in first seek first the kingdom of God do not seek first to have your own needs met do not seek first your own mental and sexual health

To them God is just a technique for their own self health their own health is improved by thinking about him worshiping him praising him reading his words over as a way of improving yourself and you're feelings about yourself and taking care of yourself

If your meditating on and worshiping a God whose primary concern is you yourself your happiness your health that is a false God

If your worshiping a God who was not offended by sin that is a false God what happened to Israel is an example for us he will discipline his people send really bothers him especially in his people

There is no doubt that all of these concepts are within the last 200 years at most

They were not in the minds of the writers or the readers or the heroes of the early church the original gospel and so forth those concepts did not exist then so they could not have been thinking and they are not in the Bible

Trying to look back afterwards and search them into that culture is absurd

Also the idea of community being centered around the self

Self getting into community because of what it can get for itself

I need to look up what community is and what it meant to them

I can quickly deal with the fact that their community is not all about love but I need to also deal with the issue that they say Jesus alone is not enough you have to have community

And one thing about that is it has to be their community which makes them the only way to God

Well no they're not saying that they're the only way to true mental health

But it seems their health and well-being is their God their journey is towards their journey is toward the self

I'd like to really focus on eternity past and how awesome that is

Joe was righteous and yet when he saw God he despised himself and that was God's goal and giving him that speech was to make him despise himself

If you don't forsake everything you have if you don't love me more than your father your mother your sister your brother or your self

The reason he didn't add them is cause they never had that idea to begin with but if that was a thought back then he would've included the self

Which take up your cross essentially does

Again changing the churches mission is just not only blasphemous it is not only rising up and being like God in fact overturning God it's his church he says what it does and what it doesn't purpose

Taking our focus off the Lost and putting it on ourselves cannot possibly be from God doubting denying changing his word cannot possibly be from him

I think I do the repurposing right before the Center is not you